Archive: on Anger
For me, anger is like this.
Physics. The Properties of Certain Chemicals.
A gas in a compressed space. It heats up, expands, creates pressure, expands into a larger space and requires a release valve. Sometimes its’ unbearable and seems to feed itself with further anger. I sometimes get to the point of hostility that nothing reasonablly kind can be garnered from the situation. I need a release valve, or something to cool the anger down to managable levels so that it takes up less emotional bandwidth than it currently does.
Stupid. I should be better than tis. I know.
I have been presented with this, the challenge to pray on behalf of my “enemies.”
The hardest thing one could ask of me. There arent’ too many people that anger me, but once a person gets on my shit list, it’s near impossible for them to get off.
I need to let loose multiple valves. I know. I need to pray.
I try to take every interaction in my life as a learning experience. The hardest part is trying to figure out what God wants me to get out of each situation. Perhaps the conflicts I’ve had recently and earlier in my life are there to teach me how to deal with situations so I don’t really hurt the ones that I love. This is my crux. I was thinking about this today over dinner. Best I learn how to address my temper now then take it out on a spouse or child in the future. True huh? But still, in the meantime it kind of sucks.
Do you have enemies? Folks that you want to do will harm on? Even though you know you shouldn’t ? Or perhaps not even that dramatic.. just folks who are on your “not favorite person” list that you’d prefer to avoid as much as possible.
Hmm yeah, I’m guessing that if you have any opinion at all, then you have a few of those muck in your life. It’s best to learn how to deal with them appropriately. Some folks are like haz mat, handle with care. Possibly explosive. Caustic. Can cause bodily harm. Yada yada.
Perhaps. And then again, perhaps, I’m one of those people too.
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