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Overload

Sunday, June 30th, 2002

There are so many things that I could write about that I barely know where to begin.

Should I go chronologically or thematically? Such is the dilemma for a writer. Additionally, shouldn’t I be writing my articles or the editorial for work instead of putzing around on my blog? Mostly all I can say is that I have very many regrets that I didn’t yet receive my new digital camera for the events of this past week or so.

#1. Madame Butterfly
So my cousin came into town on Friday and she took me to the opera in SF. The observations and reactions are many and I barely know where to begin.

a. I find it intriguing that an Italian should choose to portray with equal amounts of stereotypicisms of both prototypical Americans and prototypical Japanese. The American is a crass, loud, and insensitive lout. With a “flower” in every port and painful insensitivity to the social mores of the culture that he is currently trampling through. The Japanese woman is an utterly supplicating, sacrificial, and co-dependent woman who denies any individual desires on behalf of her ardent desire for acceptance. That these stereotypes should be further accentuated based on gender makes these differences far more extreme. The fact that a good third of the audience attending the opera involved Asian women with White men as couples attending the opera touches me as slightly ironic. I could be angry about this image but I leave it for those who still care with hypersensitivity regarding this social dynamic. For me, now it becomes just another day in San Francisco.

b. The young boy, named both sorrow and joy, Pinkerton’s son, sports a flag as a cape, blanket, & pillow during this production of Madam Butterfly. This is something new that I don’t recall seeing before when I last saw this production. Though post 9.11 there is a higher sensitivity to this icon as a defining representation of all that is American, I found the flag’s use during this production to be…well, slightly pandering. As much as I am proud to be an American and all that the mayhem that this identification includes, I still feel that the visceral and emotional attachment to this symbol has become painfully diluted in it’s heavy handed distribution through all media, mediums, conversations, and spoken points by our nation’s leaders. I wouldn’t burn the flag, but I still believe in that right to do so…and at this point in the great American mindset, such a confession would be akin to admitting that you think Osama’s kind of cute with his big brown eyes.

c. I have a new (probably never going to be started much less finished) story idea that I’d like to do about a hapa boy. Do you wonder, as I do, how sorrow/joy pinkerton grows up? How he addresses a history of suicide on his mother’s side of the family (Both Cio-cio-san and her father who was ordered by the Mikado to kill himself). How he grows up hating his father who treated his mother with disdain and tore him away from the home that he knew in Japan to middle America where, in spite of his blonde hair and blue eyes, he is still treated as an outsider? How his “mother” the second and *true* wife of his father, treats him? Though she tries to be kind, she considers him the son of a whore/geisha that his husband merely dallied with and whom she is now responsible? How, perhaps, if she were barren, she would resent sorrow/joy even more? Or if she had a child, a son perhaps, that it would recall conflict and angst much like that suffered by Ishmael vs Isaac. Or Cain vs Abel? Or Jacob and Easu?

Would young pinkerton aspire to love a woman who is Japanese like his mother? Or white like his father? Would he ever accept the love of either in spite of himself and his reservations?

Just some thoughts. And you know what… that’s about as much as I can think about this idea for right now but any feedback in the comments would be graciously appreciated.

#2. Pride Pride Pride
Damn skippy. So I volunteered for Pink Saturday down in the Castro. Happy Pride. $2 donation please? Yup, if you saw a ridiculous little girl running around with Sr. Sakitome over at 19th & Castro, that’d be me. Big fun. I got hit on by a police man, two ladies, and a gentleman that I thought was gay at first. Nice. With 2 fierce screwdrivers, I was too hung over this morning to really go into the city to watch the parade. Delight all my soul. It’s much joy to be gay friendly. Thanks for letting me participate.

And oh yeah, to the ghetto skanky bastard of a driver that totally scammed us for a ride, yes I have your fricking champagne glass. And two scotch glasses too.
$20 for a 6 block drive? Yeah, you bastard. Right.

#3. Too much sushi.
Friday, I found a cute little sushi place for lunch in San Ramon. Quaint, and quite filling in such a divey little place. Saturday, my cousin wanted to hit the sushi place at the bottom of the hill from where I live. Slightly boojie by comparison but marvy. At some point in the past Ernie and I ate there and saw a frou frou lady (you know, one of those ladies that ‘lunch’) stomp her feet and stick her lower lip out, pouting, because they weren’t serving anymore. And tonight, all you can eat sushiliciousness with the gang.
I am far beyond sated. I’ve eaten all you can eat sushi with the lovely Bella Bella Bella Bella Belinda, Ernie (aka Easy E) Paris (Papa Pareeze), Ritchi (Not the Mack, honest) Macapinlac, Jen with Adobo, Loquacious Dave, and a few other kind friends. Roll me over, yo. I’m full.

Sunday, June 30th, 2002

Slap my ass and call me a groupie.
I want a teeshirt.

Read the following notice from him. Download the mp3s. Buy additional thongs because you *know* you’re going to throw yours up on stage at their next show. No, really.

***************
Hey, this is DoctorGrosz and I�m gonna be straight-up honest with you. No bullshit. From the hip. Why? Because I need your help and there�s no point in buttering you up, feeding you lies and promising you �hot nude teens� or ways to �increase your bust size NATURALLY.�

I�ve been the guitarist for Conquistador for seven years now [we've been on Comedy Central, ESPN 2, ABC and Tokyo TV] and we�ve finally released an album worthy of breaking us into the land Kurt Loder, Green M&M�s and parties in Hef�s grotto. The only problem is: record companies want to know they�re signing a �sure thing.� No fucking risk-taking
whatsoever. You have to be famous enough that you don�t NEED the record contract.

Take a few minutes and go download our mp3s at http://www.mp3.com/conquistador � take a listen to what we�re trying to push. Check out http://www.conquistadornyc.com> nd take a look at what we�re about.

If you love it, great! The rest should be easy! Post about us on your blog, grab a banner from our site , tell your friends.

Tell ya what! If you send us 1,000 hits from your site, I�ll send you a free copy of our CD�2,000 hits and I�ll send you a free t-shirt!

If it�s not your cup of tea, no big deal! We can�t appeal to everyone. But if you respect what I�m trying to do here and you believe in the
internet�s promotional value I ask that you�d blog about that. �Conquistador is a pretty crappy band, but they�re trying to do something interesting using the weblog community, blah blah blah��

That�s it. No more pestering from me. If you have any other questions, feel free to email me. If you�re really pissed that I�ve written to you
about this, I apologize and I promise you�ll never hear from me about it again.

Rokk over London, Rokk on Chicago!
Cheers,
-doc

Friday, June 28th, 2002

Hot Damn,
Ernie makes one post about me and my hits go through the fricking roof.
Additionally, random folks from all over decide to scour my site to figure out why the hell Ernie refers to me as uber fabulous.

The truth? I pay him.

So far the only plans set are:
Friday Night: Oakenfold
Saturday Morning: Brunch with my best friend from college and her parents.

Ruling? No drugs. (Ha…kidding…kidding…yeah… ha ha …hah…)
Who? Me?

If you’re there, you’ll spot me with the tired arms and the blue photons babysitting a bunch of silly grinning friends and trying not to get coerced into kissing more girls again.
Hee.

Ok, I can be easily convinced. SO? And your point is??

Wednesday, June 26th, 2002

Woops

*ring*

“Hello? This is MJ”
“Hey, this is Cory.”
Choire?
“Yeah…so did you get lucky last night?”
“What?! What do you mean?”
“You know…by the way, I’m calling from the Boys & Girls Club of America”
“Uh…K?”
“So what’s up then? Did you get Lucky”
“Uh…wait…this is MJ”
“Oh woops. Never mind.”

Wrong number. I had a brief thought there that the Boys & Girls Club of America was doing some sort of sex telefund outreach or some such. Pity. That would have been rather nice indeed.

Stupid

Wednesday, June 26th, 2002

I’m having a day of clumsy tongue. As if I’d accidentally mistaken a tranquilizer dart intended for a polar bear as my toothbrush. Blardy blah blickity blooper blah.
Minus the drooling, it’s sort of charming. Ha. Seriously though, I think it’s best that I sit in my office and just crank through items w/o speaking too much with folks.
Email is seeming iminently safer these days.

Tuesday, June 25th, 2002

Poetica Spontenaium

Wicked ways over summer days
straddling the hours until the beer bottles sweat

Glistening lips over collarbones, hips
crumpling resistance, shredding regret

Slick sweat and sweet, a unmurmurable feat
tucked between dusk and slim thighs

Undulating stars, rocking sirens in cars
Whispers, a summer heat in disguise.

Monday, June 24th, 2002

Ewww.
My feet stink soo badly right now, it’s ridiculous. Note to self, in spite of how much I hate donning socks most any month of the year, I should still be considerate and keep my stinking tootsies to myself so that I don’t cause riots in response to chemical war fare rumours at the office.

Bloody brilliant.

In other news
* Slightly less cranky
* Planning to sleep early so I can catch the World Cup Game as Korea goes up against Germany MahnSEHHHH!
* Have 2 presentations to run tomorrow
* My car is stacked to the gills with water bottles. I drink beer. Explain this with your best theory.
* I should wash my feet before I chill with pussy kitties Opie & Simone
* Missed calls today make me both sad & delighted.
* The new digital camera that I ordered should be arriving soon. Woot.

I dig my new toys.
Did I fail to mention I also recently got talked into a MD player? It’s cute… (though slower than anticipated in burning mp3s to disk…still it’s read writeable and that makes it dead sexy. It’s also got the option to record stuff like interviews etc. straight to disk.

Sunday, June 23rd, 2002

Fetal Position
My best friend from college is pregnant. I can barely believe it. Two years ago I was a bridesmaid for her wedding and now she apparently looks like she’s swallowed a small soccer ball. I wonder if she considers the kicking training for World Cups to come.

My bosslady is pregnant too. I was delighted to see her last week at work wearing overalls. Few things delight me more than cute little pregnant ladies in overalls. She sketched a drawing of what yet another co-worker’s baby might look like now (into month 2). It’s a kidney bean with nubbins.

Last night I took a nap with Opie and held him close to me, wrapped loosely in a towel. I think he felt comforted with another heart beat next to his. I took comfort in holding something small and feeling his sweet warm puffs of breath against my neck.

Today, after a tremendously draining weekend which left me feeling spent and cranky, woefully irate and icky, all I wanted to do was to set my head down in a comforting person’s lap, curl up with a blanket and know that someone loved me. I borrowed Jen’s lap from Paris and she complied. Had I not the comfort of good friends, I think I would have gone postal. I envied those tiny creatures & babies that can go to the simple comforts of being held by someone bigger who cared more than you could ever fathom.

Friday, June 21st, 2002

Warm Pussies & Hottubbing < -- You're right, it's definitley not what you think.

To say I’m exhausted is an understatement.
I’ve been feeling a bit overwhelmed of late…and in desperate need of pure downtime. Pure, “I don’t care if I’m being rude, but could you please go away…yeah, I meant now” kind of downtime. That kind of delightful 30 minute hot shower kind of alone time. (And no, a massage pulsating showerhead is not the type of alone time I mean either…well not now anyways).

I’m not really allowed this type of downtime for yet another couple of weeks. Not until NY I think… and even then, I’ll be running amok trying to visit with everyone there and packing in as much as I can, more than purely vedging. However, there are still moments of respite.

Simone as I call her, the black cat with a lovely white throat, who has been visiting with my household over the last few weeks apparently has a brood. Jon caught one of her kin earlier today and placed her in his empty hottub. He’s too small and weak to jump out and doesn’t yet know how to do anything besides look at you, nap, and occasionally blink. He looks about a month old, is pure black except for a few scant white hairs in his coat and a few stray strands that fly from the tips of his ears. He’s sweet and quiet and only peed on my jeans a little bit. Anxiety, I suppose, and with the cranky mood I’ve been in this past week, I’m sure I”ve made more than a few men wet their pants with my ire. Still, I find him a charmer. You always have to watch out for those quiet ones, my friends tell me. Those are the ones that’ll steal your heart.

So, with out much reservation, I climbed into the tub with kitty, hoisted him on my lap, and stroked the underside of his chin and let him lick my fingertips after I’d dipped them in milk. I nabbed a book and chilled there, content and happy with Orpheus (as I think I’ll call him…Opie for short) on my lap and Isabel Allende in hand. Four hours went by fast and I only just left because my butt got sore. Hottubs are *not* comfortable without the water. Still, a happy, warm, and well fed kitten on your lap makes you yearn for more generous thighs to better enjoy such simple delights. My allergies for whatever reason decided to suspend themselves with Opie. Happiness is.

And so, yes, I’m quite happy right now. Gnight.

PS. GO KOREA ! WORLD CUP BABY!

Stevie wonder

Wednesday, June 19th, 2002

Does Stevie Wonder have his own holiday yet?

No?
I’d like to nominate today, humpday, and a weary summer one at that, as “I Just Called to Say I Love You” day. (And no, there is no sponsorship here from Sprint or AT&T or 10-10-220…carrot top can go fuck himself, ya know? I hate that guy.)

I think we all need a little bit of that expression that comes from telling someone hey, been thinking of you and I want to let you know that I hope you’re good.

Please call someone you haven’t talked to in a while, and let them know you care. A little love and a little smile over the phone line goes a long way and who says we couldn’t use a wee bit more of that in the world, huh?

Tell me how it goes in the commentitos.

I JUST CALLED TO SAY I LOVE YOU / Stevie Wonder

No New Year’s day to celebrate
No chocolate covered candy hearts to give away
No first of spring
No song to sing
In fact here’s just another ordinary day

No April rain
No flowers bloom
No wedding Saturday within the month of June
But what it is, is something true
Made up of these three words that I must say to you

I just called to say I love you
I just called to say how much I care
I just called to say I love you
And I mean it from the bottom of my heart

No summer’s high
No warm July
No harvest moon to light one tender August night
No autumn breeze
No falling leaves
Not even time for birds to fly to southern skies

No Libra sun
No Halloween
No giving thanks to all the Christmas joy you bring
But what it is, though old so new
To fill your heart like no three words could ever do

I just called to say I love you
I just called to say how much I care
I just called to say I love you
And I mean it from the bottom of my heart

I just called to say I love you
I just called to say how much I care, I do
I just called to say I love you
And I mean it from the bottom of my heart
Of my heart,
…… of my heart

Tuesday, June 18th, 2002

It’s Out and it’s getting *RAVE* reviews!

And why yes, I do happen to have a small piece in the issue.
Yo, canucks, go find it.

I can’t wait to get my sweaty little hands on my issue.
Hot.

Tuesday, June 18th, 2002

I’m up.

I’m off to watch Korea kick some ass in the World Cup.
Mahnssseeeeeeeeeeeeehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

And yeah, when asked the question who I’d root for if Korea went up against the US in soccer? Hmmm I’d still root for Korea. It’s not so much about nationalism as phenotype…cuz, come *on*, how often do you see someone that looks like your cousin strut around in a gold medal? Wooot!

Conversations with Poops

Monday, June 17th, 2002

Conversations with the Old Man.

“Happy Father’s Day Daddy”
“Is that it?”
“Uh… what else do you want?”
“Nuh tting.”
“Ok, then you get nuh tting just like you asked”
(chuckles)
“How are you, my love-ly daughter?”
“Oh, fine Daddy.. just fine. Did Mike call you?”
“He in Korea. Business Trip.”
“Wow, really? And he remembered to call?”
“Yeah.. he watching soccer. He at the game when he call.”
“Woah. “
“Yeah. At least he remember to call Daddy.”
“Well, I guess it’s not so special for you when I call because I call you all the time?”
“No, not so much.”
“Uh, thanks… I think…”
“Ah, stupid daughter. I still love you.”
“I love you too, of course.”
“Try to Daddy happy, always.”
“Of course. Always….so how old are you now, huh?”
“Daddy is … oh, I almost forgot. Daddy is 65 year old.”
“Wow Dad. Don’t die or anything, ha ha ha…”
“Aigoo.. don’t say!~”
“Just joking Dad.. just tell Mike and Charlene to have some kids for you… I’m a long way off from that.”
“Yesuh, I know. Trouble maker. Aigoo.. you findah boyfriend yet?”
“Not quite Dad. You know me. Picky.”
“Too much picky never find the right one. You can find one who is good enough, right?”
“Sure, but good enough is different from what you think and what I think.”
“You know, so long as nice, good person…doesn’t matter if they make a lot of money or anything like that…”
“So I don’t have to marry a doctor anymore?”
“No.. you don’t have to…but I don’t mind still.”
“No Doctor Shorty, though.”
“He still nice man.”
“Yes Dad, I know.”
“Ok, try to be good.”
“It’s hard Dad, but I’ll try.”
“OK. Bye.”
“Hey Dad? I love you.”
“Yeah yeah yeah. I love you too.”

Other Memories of My Dad?
Too many to mention…but some that I’ve blogged follows. I will say this though, my relationship with my father is really a blessing. It’s not sophisticated or very erudite, but it’s earnest, and unconditional. We’ve come a very long way to get here like most families, I’m sure.

The summer of 92, after my mother passed away, my Dad spent a lot of time alone and in contemplation. His son had moved to Korea, his wife had succumbed to cancer, and his daughter, whom he’d had only antagonism and miscommunication with, was his closest family member and she, er, me, I was going off to college.

He sat me down one day and said “I’m sorry I’m not good daddy always. But I know now, I have to be mommy and daddy for you. Please let me try.” I remember crying again when he told me that.

He’s a good dad. And the best one that I could ever hope for.
(And boy do I write about him a lot)
04/20/99
08/30/00
09/13/00
09/24/00
12/12/00
12/23/00
03/30/01
07/01/00
09/30/01
11/07/01
11/28/01
02/14/02
03/27/02
05/9/02

Monday, June 17th, 2002

PS.

What’d you do for father’s day? Phone call? Putzing around the house? Brunch with the parents?
So what’d I *really* do for fathers day?
Oh… ya know… hit a drag show.
Bill always does the *ab best* reviews of the evening.
Jon, Bill, Heather, Lance, Jish, Kristin, & Todd. Good times had by all.

Advance warning

Sunday, June 16th, 2002

Advance Warning: NYC

Just a friendly note of warning.
Ernie and Myself will be hitting the streets of NYC from July 3rd – July 7th. (We’re taking the red eye out on July 2nd).

Do you want to meet up?

I have only the vaguest of plans right now and want to make sure I don’t miss anyone whilst I’m out there. But, oh yeah, You will find us at Paul Oakenfold on July 5th. Bertie’s coming with us. Woot.

I want to pin down contact info/schedules/etc. over the next few weeks.

Another project that I’m going to be working on?
Will be telling you more about that soon.
MJ