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Defeated

01/26/01

I feel defeated.

Not by any foe other than my own ineptitude and inability to manage my day. I feel weary. I want to cry until all this crap inside of me is free from my body, from bleary eyes and pounding head, to leaden fingers and very vexed toes. It’s been a cruddy week and I’m just homesick like crazy, feeling generally annoyed with myself and addled. Ever feel so sick & frustrated that it’s like you’re walking in a cold foggy maze and no matter what you try, you can’t seem to climb over the walls or navigate out? And you feel just frustrated, anxious and annoyed? I feel raw, and tense and all spratzled and blarsy. I feel like I hate myself for my own inability to climb out of this slump. My brain feels burdened. Coffee, nor nicotine, nor prayer seems to elevate this. I feel defeated. By my own weakness

Hey.I know that feeling its amazing how we try to face our own personal demons in order to raise above them only to find that they still penetrate deeper on thier comeback. Keep on keeping on,the light might be dim but the hope of you egnighting it further is not lost.