Pray. Yes.
11/02/00
If I had my phone connection set up, would I be updating while here at work? All souls day. Pray, remember, be good. Special thoughts go out to all who have loved ones that they miss. I miss my mom. But yeah, like that’s news.
On my hands,I have two rings that belonged to her. On my right hand, I have my mother’s wedding ring that she gave me during her last days on earth. In one of those lucid moments that she had between uneasy sleep, pain, and morphine induced delirium, she took it off her swollen finger and put it on mine. It fits.
On the left hand I have her rosary ring. It’s the one she prayed on all the time and I’d like to believe it’s her still praying for me as it slips around my fingers as I type and muck around all day, it rotates easily since my fingers are a little thinner than hers.
I feel almost like the rings, both on middle fingers, are like a protective talismans for me, keeping me in good spirits, with good opportunities placed before me, hard challenges that make me grow, and safe. I think it’s true. Work is picking up and getting better. It feels like a fog is finally lifting from my brain and I can know be productive (cross fingers)
Philippe, my boss, thinks I should use my Webcam as a toe cam underneath my desk and pointed at my little piggies. Yeah, like I need more foot fetishists accidently finding my site.
Phil, at work, also recommends that I get myself some and then I’d be all de-stressed. Sheesh… I just don’t get it, the concept of random “fuck buddies”… just seems so wrong. I’m too Catholic for that kind of crap anyway. Even if I did miss service yesterday and today. Still, I’ll light a candle or say a prayer with a cigarette later tonight before I go to bed.
Peace Out folks,
Feeling thoughtful -
Min Jung
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